I hate everyoneee:)

If I actually really really care about you, otherwise..I hate having my hands touched!

But I don’t like it as a public display of love, I like it more when it’s in private and we’re just laying around doing nothing or watching a movie and eatin some chips. It’s intimate.

For not a God damn thing except getting paid and paying my bitches back. Then seeing my main bitch and chilling. I cant wait until my next paycheck though…hopefully I’ll be free again!!!!

And when you’re tired of trying to keep up with a growing man, throw up your hand, and run away as fast as you can.

Sometimes I just wish I lived right outside a huge town..a huge pretty town..with beautifully sculpted skyscrapers and clean streets. Yeah..sometimes I wish I lived right outside of it..in the middle of a thousand trees right off of some small road… A place with a beautiful balcony and a giant backyard full of soft grass that I could just lay in when life gets a little too tough. A place where it snows in the winter and I get to wear all the sweaters I want..it’s true..I do love sweaters.
Someplace where I could wear a long sleeve shirt on almost any day and I wouldn’t get too hot.
Sometimes I wish..I wish I could just run away to that place now..
I want to run away..but I don’t wanna go alone anymore..

This has been pretty hard so far and things just seem to be getting even tougher. Maybe he’ll grow rired, maybe things will get ten times better but.. For now.. Things are just hard. All I really want is kindness, it’s pretty much all I can take right now. I wish someone could understand this but no one I know could. There’s too many changes happening at once and I feel like certain people are not picking me up to go along for the ride. I miss the simple things… And I fear that the things that make me the happiest will change.. as well as the people.. And I don’t want that. I want them to stay the same because they are great how they are.. And oh, that word, that simple word I’ve always wanted said to me.. just seems far as ever now..